Originally read an article "Xiaofang" these two days from time to time from the brain, can not sleep in the morning, opened and looked at the text described in the book, "This different principle is like this: in the rural world, a lot of things happen every day, because there are so many things, so that people no longer put those things involved, so become indifferent; In our world, nothing happens every day, so people take everything as a thing and become neurotic. The world of apathy and the world of neuroticism are two radios on different bands, each singing its own drama." Think about your family and work, suddenly put those people and these words on the number, the original and people's world is really completely different, I like to walk through two completely different worlds, stumbling, really need to exercise mental health, do not practice really easy to get sick.
Taking advantage of the holiday tail, went back to my mother's home, know that my grandfather's illness is more serious, an uncle found a short-sighted…… Looking at the family without waves and habits of talking about, some hard part of the heart began to dull pain…… Indifference is the world's defensive shell.
The leader is a delicate and some neurotic woman, for a long time stuck in her influence on me can not come out, this influence can not be explained, unclear, the overall feeling is uncomfortable, and her intersection performance is that she from time to time and others say (most of the time I am at the scene) my nondescript, hate iron not steel, mud can not help the wall, The real performance is that their work is marginalized, the evaluation of the award is not known, and the distribution of interests is not shared. My overall feeling towards her was that I had somehow become her imaginary enemy, and from time to time I accepted her words that she stood on the moral high ground in the name of being good to me, and sometimes there were people's stumbles while there was no support for work resources. The impact of this feeling and current situation on my body was that my hair fell off a lot and even appeared bald spots for a time.
But it can't be said that she is bad, because as a subordinate, I did not carry out the work she wanted me to do (at the beginning, I did devote myself to it, but later, due to limited practical conditions, I really could not do it), although most of the work is more hard, but always can not do her point, under the grievances of her emotions and the uneven distribution of reality, I chose the defensive method of indifference, ignoring her emotions and rewards and punishments, working hard, doing the work that needed hard work, drilling the knowledge that needed research, and learning how to cultivate the mind, how to achieve mental balance and health at other times.
The real work is so complex and simple and awkward, I am at a loss and firmly crawling.
Don't be afraid of cracks, cracks is where the light comes in, the text is limited, no longer one by one,…… The reality is that I have gradually figured out a way to sing my own drama without losing my feelings in an indifferent and neurotic world, without disturbing the original band, and no longer foolhardy but gradually firm and powerful, which should be maturity.